Why is Good Friday, Good?

What really got me yesterday while eavesdropping on a conversation:

'What is Easter?'

As we approach the end of this Lenten season, I think about all the times I have taken Easter for granted. Bunnies, easter egg hunts, chocolate---the media truly had me as a child. I never knew about Good Friday, or the Easter Triduum.

How can we take Jesus's cross for granted by replacing his image with bunnies? I don't understand how the greatest sin of crucifying an innocent man could be replaced with such an image. How could we be so self absorbed to forget the real meaning of Easter?

I dare you and myself to look at a cross, and think differently this Easter.
We die because of our sins, and then are forgiven. Tell me that's not powerful.

Praise God

So I'm pretty ecstatic right now, because God answered my prayers!

Leave all your trouble and worries to God, because he will provide and he will answer. He will set you free from your problems and show you how merciful and how powerful he is. :)

Thank you Emily for the wonderful news. You have made my year!
Say girl, may I have some of that BACON.
Digital hug! (hug)


I love my roomie, Cindy!
Hi my name is Cindy, I'm 20 years old...
I know.. I know... I know...


By the way, studying is great ;)
<3

Wonderful Experience

Hey everyone! I feel anew again!

Confession is the most relaxing and rewarding experience ever.

Better than that ride at Frontier Fiesta.

Haha.

Woo!

I just want to give appreciation to God and praise him here.

I'm so blessed to have Him in my life.

Love God.


I'm so addicted to the CNC, I'm not even joking.

Life is just getting started!

I don't know about you, but I'm feeling great!

Since my last blog, I reflected on those three resolutions that I planned to commit to. I would be glad to say that I have been living up to all three of them.

I just came from the Alternative Spring Break (Galveston, TX) and I feel like a new person. I have the drive to meet new people, and spread a smile wherever I go. Most of all, the service taught me to always turn to God when I have problems and with praises. I know that I would have have been able to go through work this weekend without praying to him right before and after work. He's a miracle maker, I can tell you that.

Right now, the passage in the bible that I'm thinking about is the one that Father Mundy mentioned at mass yesterday. It was about a girl accused for adultery, and the Pharasees were testing Jesus by using Moses' Law. According to Moses, those who commit adultery should be stone to death. Jesus replied by saying that whoever is without sin is the first to throw a stone. The men started walking away, and the only one left was the girl. Jesus didn't throw a stone either, and told her to not sin anymore.

This passage reminds me of the times whenever I was unfair to my friends or acquaintances that I accused because they did something wrong, but only finding fault in myself as well. It sucks, I've lost many friends that way just because I hung out with a crowd that pretty much gossiped. I really want to be friends and mend broken bonds, even though it seems too late. It's really never too late to do God's work, anyway.

I've never been so happy in my entire life.

Praise be to God,

Sarahboo

The New Year, or the "new me"?

I'd like to take this year, like every other year, as a challenge.

Every January, we tend to bring ourselves to start a new beginning by creating a diet to lose weight or to read the bible every single day. And each and every year, there are obstacles that face us and our promises slip away until we revive them for the next new year.

This year will be a different year.
I will be single for the first time in over three years. I will be able to experience this freedom to have crushes and to like someone and not be cooped up inside my turtle shell. This means looking good and feeling great inside and out.

For the new year and the many years to come (as God allows),

1. I will watch what I eat. I'm open to diets, however I know I will not stick to one, so now I will make sure that full does mean full and not hungrier. If I don't finish my food, a tupper-ware will be used to scrape off the leftovers for the next day. I will not waste food by throwing it away.

2. Second, I will exercise. Sampanda and I will have our exercises outside so he can have a great run while I could burn some off some of my cellulite. I figured that I'm not getting any younger and its harder to take the fat out if its been there for a while.

3. I will be nicer to people. I think this is my hardest promise because I am a biased freak-of-nature and I do believe what my friends think, but I will have to widen the horizon.

I think three is good enough.

Thanks Brian Berger for reading, I'm loving the encouragement :)

Confused or blind?

It has been a while since I wrote in here. I feel the need to express my feelings on here so I do not throw the burden at my friends.

These three and a half years have been a difficult road that taught me about myself. I knew that before I met him, I had this unrealistic view of life. Because of him, I learned how to love someone else and how to take care of them. Because of him, I strive to find a clear direction to my passion. And yet, because of him, I expect more of him than myself.

I want to know what love is. I thought I have been loving all this time; taking care of him, trying to help him succeed. But somehow, I'm being pulled down, by his lack of drive and his family. For so long I was able to keep the family separate from our lives together, but as the clock ticks, I had a hard time picturing our lives together with our families not getting along. I cannot picture myself saying, "sorry kids, we cannot visit grandma, she's not a good lady". With someone who has not had a grandma to hug and to touch, how could I isolate my future children? The future of us looks dull and hazy, just like the morning mist of a foggy morning.

Is it fair for me to do this? To judge someone because of their circumstances? Can you call me weak because I cannot look past all the obstacles? Would it be a fair argument to say that I only like me who are stable and I would leave them when they becoming paralyzed and fractured and essentially 'useless'. This is such a controversy that I have to leave up to God. If God wants us together, he would do what it takes to make this work out.

These past lonely nights have been hard. I have spent every day for the past 3 years 8 months talking to a lovely voice on the phone every night, either saying goodnight or praying. Now I have a void that I have to fill with busy work, or I cry.

Let this be a prayer.